This one's for RocketGirl

A couple of things.

First, you might want to check these guys out. They look a little iffy; but they're supposedly hiring locally: Infinium Labs

Second, I bet you could have guessed this one.


Zhaan: You are Zhaan, the Blue Bitch (but in a good
way). Constant frustration with the small
brains around you forces you to practice the
vegetable form of Tai-Chi. IN...OUT...master of
calm. Once a rather fiesty thing, you became a
priestess and can now heal anything with the
most irratating sort of pacificity. Oh and uh,
mind the light...


Who the FRELL are you? A Farscape Personality Quiz.
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Rambling

Just bored at work, so i'm rambling on. Haven't had the chance to talk to people much lately, aside from the few who show up at the Mercury and Aurafice. Lotsa weird shit going on in my life, upheaval, good and bad, family and friends. Chaos. Fortunately, i'm a creature of chaos, and if i don't get enough i get bored. I'm also a serious neophile, and if there isn't enough new stuff; i get bored.

Been spending a lot of time hanging out with eonen lately, more than anyone except deadrose_black. Looking at it from the outside strikes me as kind of strange, since she isn't the sort of person I would normally have been hanging around in the past. Seriously, dear, you are. Quite different. Can't really describe how, except for that whole hyperactive thing. Actually, I take that back, you do remind me quite a bit of an old friend i haven't seen for a while.

I find that I tend to spend more time around people than I used to; which is weird since i'm also getting more misanthropic as time goes on. I guess my feelings on people are getting more polarized. There are good people, people worth being around; not-good people, people I don't want to be around unless I have to be; and people who haven't yet fallen into one of those categories. It's also strange that the more I dislike people in general, the more I can tolerate them. It's kind of strange, that. On the other hand, my tolerance for bad driving is getting steadily worse. I mean, i'm not the world's greatest driver, not particularly good; but when i get out on the road and at least a half to two-thirds are worse than i am? It's frightening.

The last year has been... weird. People I thought were my friends don't seem to be anymore. People I used to hang out with have disappeared or don't really end up at the same places I do. But i've found new friends, not as many, but they seem to be closer than those i've lost. Certainly not as likely to just drift away.

Not looking forward to this summer all that much, since I'll be unemployed again in a shitty job market. Still don't know if my current boss is going to want me back (doing my Microsoft mandatory 100 days off contract thing). Not really sure if I want to come back, even though I really really like my job. I'd like to find someplace I can do a job like this; but as a FTE with better benefits. I'd even take a 15% pay cut if it meant secure employment with decent bennies and a reasonable chance for advancement.

Sex life is pretty non-existent, and has been for quite some time. I'm not sure how much this bothers me. A lot of has to do with health issues (my own and others'), scheduling, distance, and that whole scary crack monkey thing. I dunno. Sometimes it really bothers me, sometimes I think i'm better off letting that part of me die completely. It's weird. I think a good part of it has to do with my neophilic streak. I need novelty. It's something of an obsession.

I still haven't gotten my computer stuff advanced much at all. All these boxes and bits just sitting around doing nothing. Part of that has been money, having to help deadrose out with bills and various other things. Mostly, though, it's just been space. Living in a shoebox-sized apartment doesn't give me much room for stuff, and i don't have nearly enough heavy-duty shelf space for the gear i've got. I'm hoping to fix that some time before summer rolls around; so I can spend my unemployment time actually learning some useful skills. Just need to get the shelving in and get things re-arranged in a logical and space-efficient manner. I can't even clean up much, because of the clutter.

I need more focus and energy.

Been reading a lot again. Quite for a while while I was working for Earthlink; mostly because of time and mental stress, i think. My day was usually so stressful that I spent a lot more time on mindless activities to relax and let go of all the crap that built up during the day. Now that i'm not feeling so chewed up all the time, my brain is working again and I can start using it like I used to.

I haven't touched any cannabis since running out and deciding to take some time away from it almost exactly one year ago. I can't really say that I'm any better off for it. Some things seem better, some things seem worse. Not going back on it anytime soon, though; mostly because of the cost and effort involved. It wasn't enough of an improvement to justify what it was costing me; and i can't grow my own effectively, because of the whole space issue i mentioned earlier. I'm drinking a bit more than I used to; though not much. That's kind of misleading. I'm not drinking more at a time, just more often. I rarely drink more than one or two drinks at a time (depending on how badly the bartenders overpour on any particular night); but i am drinking rather more often than I used to. Which still isn't much, maybe 3 or 4 nights a week. Speaking of bartenders, the Mercury appears to have a new one working Wednesday nights (I don't know if she's already been working other nights, since I only go out Tuesdays and Wednesdays mostly); but she is really KYOOOOTE!!! Eonen and I were both drooling over her pretty badly last Wednesday. Wow.

Gearing up for Norwescon, and I'll actually have a room this year. Dunno how i'll be for crash space, though. Got a double reserved; but possibly have emp42ress taking up some of the space. Have to see how things go. And it looks like I'll have money to spend on cool stuff this year. Yay! I'm even putting together a costume, though only one and not a spectacular one at that. But a few people will find it entertaining.

Running out of brain juice. So i'll just clean up stuff here, and head home where deadrose is waiting for me after a doctor's appointment. Get to spend most of the weekend working on the Beast (my minivan); which is going to suck. There's a strange sort of event happening Saturday, but I probably won't get to go; cause of all the other stuff I have to do Saturday. Bleah. Oh well, gonna do a movie night with Eonen on Monday, and Tuesday gonna hang out with treebyleaf for a while.