Sick

Fuck people, fuck work, fuck Seattle and this shitty weather, fuck home, fuck pets, fuck relationships, fuck friends, fuck my apartment, fuck drugs, fuck food, fuck all the effort I'm putting out simply trying to retain my tenuous grasp of reality and not fall pray to the delusions and paranoia that constantly threaten to overwhelm me, fuck any chance of crawling out of this pit.

I just can't do it any more. I don't have the energy to cope with all the demands on my time and energy; and no one to help.

I give up. To hell with it all.